Raw Emotion Moment: Why is it that every time I am having a good, productive, positive, confident day, I crash and burn halfway through and have a breakdown about things that could still go wrong?
Most days are full of anxiety, both social and mental, dread and depression, and anger. However, there is always at least 1 out of 7 golden days a week in which I feel spectacular, amazing, perfect.
Then, slowly, subtly, I hear that voice in my head saying ‘yeah your day is going great, but what about tomorrow, or in a month when you have to give that presentation for work, or in 10 years when you might not even be alive and this is all for naught?’
I am substantially blessed in my life with a job I love, a family I love, and a boyfriend I beyond love. There is nothing serious to complain about with love and success in my life, so why am I always focused on death, dying, and destruction?
I would like advice on how to train my brain to stop being negative, sans any medication.
Or maybe I do need medication, hell, I don’t know. Gnarls Barkley’s Crazy big hit Crazy just came on my playlist as I typed that last sentence, perhaps it’s a sign.