A Hello, an Explanation, and A Question.

Breath in. Hold on. Breath out.

Enjoy that deep, heavy numb settle over.

A mix of painkillers and mood stabilizers will do that to you.

Recently my life has been a confusing mix of unwanted emotions and words.

I have been struggling with depression and anxiety, but who hasn’t, right?

Please do not take this post as a pity-me sort of thing, I am more than blessed in every facet of my life.

Anyway, a bit more than depression and anxiety, I have been struggling with bipolar disorder. This is amazing news to me because the extreme highs and lows of creativity, mood swings, over and under sexualization, and overall unwarranted wave of depression finally make sense. As a writer, photographer, designer, and all-around creative person, this is quite difficult to deal with, however, as far as productivity goes.

I have been a bit more numb lately, which I can’t decide is a good or bad thing overall. My moods are better, my writing/creativity isn’t. So if my posts are fewer and less full of oomph lately, you’ll understand why. I hope anyone who has been regularly following my blog or just found it who is going through any mental turmoil can enjoy a few scatterbrained posts here and there. 🙂

Here are two questions I find myself posing today if anyone wants to get involved in a bit of a conversation/my half-numb half-creative thought process.

  • Which is more important, in your opinion? Having the ability to make and maintain healthy friendships, or having the ability to make and maintain a healthy friendship with oneself? Is it healthier to be social when you can, or is being happy with one’s own company better for you?
  • What is, if any, the difference between self-confidence and self-esteem? Further into the subject, in today’s social media-oriented world, is there a healthy connection between the new ‘selfie’ craze and boosted self-confidence, or do you find it is typically the opposite (the more selfies, the lower that individuals true self-image)?

-D.R Breshears


3 thoughts on “A Hello, an Explanation, and A Question.

  1. Your questions are not easily answered directly, because what is my resolution of them has been a decades long process of growth and experience. I do not think I could have fast-tracked to this point, nor would I really have wanted to, on reflection… I am happy and comfortable with myself. I am able to spend time alone, but I have a few very close friends who I spend time with regularly. I am not a big crowds person. Question 2… I think S-C and S-E are two separate things. At various times in my life, I might have had one but not the other, yet today, I think I have a healthy balance of both, tempered with humility. Lastly, I don’t do social media, so I cannot offer an opinion in all fairness.

      1. If my thoughts serve as a sounding-board for you, and assist you in finding answers relevant to your life journey, then I am more than happy 🙂

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