Breath in. Hold on. Breath out.
Enjoy that deep, heavy numb settle over.
A mix of painkillers and mood stabilizers will do that to you.
Recently my life has been a confusing mix of unwanted emotions and words.
I have been struggling with depression and anxiety, but who hasn’t, right?
Please do not take this post as a pity-me sort of thing, I am more than blessed in every facet of my life.
Anyway, a bit more than depression and anxiety, I have been struggling with bipolar disorder. This is amazing news to me because the extreme highs and lows of creativity, mood swings, over and under sexualization, and overall unwarranted wave of depression finally make sense. As a writer, photographer, designer, and all-around creative person, this is quite difficult to deal with, however, as far as productivity goes.
I have been a bit more numb lately, which I can’t decide is a good or bad thing overall. My moods are better, my writing/creativity isn’t. So if my posts are fewer and less full of oomph lately, you’ll understand why. I hope anyone who has been regularly following my blog or just found it who is going through any mental turmoil can enjoy a few scatterbrained posts here and there. 🙂
Here are two questions I find myself posing today if anyone wants to get involved in a bit of a conversation/my half-numb half-creative thought process.
- Which is more important, in your opinion? Having the ability to make and maintain healthy friendships, or having the ability to make and maintain a healthy friendship with oneself? Is it healthier to be social when you can, or is being happy with one’s own company better for you?
- What is, if any, the difference between self-confidence and self-esteem? Further into the subject, in today’s social media-oriented world, is there a healthy connection between the new ‘selfie’ craze and boosted self-confidence, or do you find it is typically the opposite (the more selfies, the lower that individuals true self-image)?